And Nothing Will Be Impossible Unto You

Monday, February 22, 2010
8:49 PM  Matthew 17:20 (I know. I surprised myself.)

At the risk of writing yet another sappy and sentimental blog post... I'm writing another sappy and sentimental blog post.  If you can't stomach it, feel free to stop reading now.  Seriously.  It's okay.  Even I cringe sometimes when I read these.

But while I was on the train going up to Boston the other day, I was checking Twitter on my phone, and I came across a quote.  I follow TheDailyLove, which sends these random inspirational quotes out into the void, and one just really struck me.  Struck me so much I can't really remember it (ha), but it had to do with putting all of your faith into the Universe or God or whatever it is you believe in. 

And, as you know, I'd been having a tough week at work.  And I'd been having a tough week personally because of (I'll admit it) Valentine's Day.  And believe me when I say I truly HATE that Valentine's Day bothered me because I truly HATE when single people are all single and bitter about a day that celebrates Love. But that is how I found myself last week.  Single, and bitter about it.

So, I'm stuck on this train that's running and hour and a half late after a really long, hard week, and I thought, 'Okay, FINE.'  It wasn't an angry "fine," it was more of an exasperated, okay-you-win "fine."  I'll do it.  I'll just put all of my faith into the Universe.  I'm going to believe that everything is happening for a reason, and when I get frustrated or lonely or sad or lose hope for humanity, I will remember to have faith.

And I've decided I'm going to do this, this whole crazy having-faith-and-not-questioning-the-Universe thing, for three months.  Because, while putting a time limit on faith may not exactly seem like real faith, I'm still me.  And it makes me feel better to know I have a date when I can reassess and decide if this philosophy is working for me.  My biggest fear is that by completely letting go, I'll lose sight of the life goals I have for myself.  Right now I think of "having faith" as following blindly.  I hope that will change.

Anyway, stay tuned.  And have faith that I'll keep you posted...

BA DUM CHHHHH!

Anyone?  Anyone?

Love,
Tara