"I can watch a sunset on my own."

Sunday, May 30, 2010
7:58 PM From where dirt used to be.

Today I went to Central Park and the movie theater by myself. I’ve found I tend to not do things if I have no one to do them with, and today, on the first Sunday I’ve had off in a long time when I wasn’t too tired or too hungover, I decided to break the habit.

I wish I could tell you that I truly appreciated the time I got to spend with myself as I wandered the streets of New York City or sat alone in Central Park or alone in the movie theater. I’d like to be able to write this as an enlightened, self-confident woman who knows that at the end of the day she only needs herself.

But the truth is, spending the whole day alone was, well, lonely.

But I am proud of myself for doing what I wanted to do today, regardless of whether I had someone to do it with or not.

This was just one day. I don’t have to be enlightened yet. Just gotta keep the faith.

Love,
Tara